It really hit me today on the fact of how fake people really are. People are very deceitful, manipulative, and just plain dark. My reasons to keep helping people have vanished. Every time I feel finally safe and ok with someone it always quickly flips around. From breaking that trust to my own stupidity. It’s not always a one sided fight when it is about two people. Maybe I just need to move and get a fresh start, away from family, away from the people I think are my friends, and away from the past. But that would not change a single thing. I’m stuck feeling so empty, every single day when I get up I just say why bother. These days are not worth living if you have no one to be with.